Monday, October 31, 2011

Moving On

Recently it seems she doesn't care at all
I realized I need to stand again after I fall
I don't need to wake up the princess sleeping
For I am not the prince she's dreaming.

Loving is not owning, I should let go
I can't be stuck and be like emo
But the more I wanted to move on
The more I think of you all day long.

Sometimes I wonder if meeting you is good or bad
Because you made me happy though sometimes sad
I'm just sad because it can never be us
But I'm still glad I've been happy in the past.

Is it already the ending?
Or I am just concluding and pretending
It's not that I am being pessimistic
I am just being realistic.

Never Did I

Never did I make use of a lie
Never did I thought of making you cry
Never did I do something to say sorry
Never did I think not to worry
Never did I let myself happy when you're sad
Never did I choose the things that'll make you mad
Never did I care less when you are sick
Never did I call you a freak
Never did I feel I am nothing to you
Never did I blame you when I feel blue
Never did I become greedy as I give you everything
Never did I expect to receive something
Never did I think to hide but offer you love
Never did I hear "I love you Zhab"
Never did I look at physical attraction
Never did I disregard personal affection
I did all the best a man can do
But never did I feel you love me too
And never will I regret that I loved you.

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

Dreams Are Better Than Reality


There is this guy named Zhab who is truly in love with a girl named Maria. How he wish that it'll be them someday but something's bothering him if that would still happen. He has been thinking of it often, time after time, even until before he sleeps. One night, he over think about it until he slept.

Zhab woke up on his dream, he is now living in his imaginations. There, he woke up early in the morning like it is the reality, everything's the same so Zhab doesn't knew it's only a dream.

There he sees Maria, Zhab often visits her for he wanna see if she is fine. Maria, on the other hand, entertains Zhab whenever they meet. For each day, Zhab feels his love to her is endless, like it will never fade.

One day, Maria knew that she has a heart problem, literally she has a heart disorder as told by her family when she had a check-up. Then, Maria became aware of her actions for her life is in danger since a heart disorder is a big deal.

A day after, she told her classmates about it. Since her classmates are quite close to Zhab, they told him. Zhab was like shocked of the news and so she suddenly visited Maria.

Before Zhab enters their school, he saw Maria with another guy, so he just stayed out of the school and went home after. Zhab, while walking, is thinking that if that guy deserves to take care of Maria's heart, then so be it. h e just wishes Maria would be fine.

Although, deep inside, Zhab knows he can give the best cure and care to Maria's heart but he wasn't given the chance. Just like before, magpaparaya na lang siya.

Zhab, as a gentleman, just stayed away from them to avoid controversies but still he really is concern about her. Zhab just texts Maria to ask if she is fine and glad to say she is.

Month ago, Maria felt so empty. The guy left Maria. Maria was heartbroken, she feels her heart disorder is attacking her. And so she told her mom and ask for a checkup again.

Maria was diagnosed, her heart problem became serious. She is in need of a new heart to survive though her heart is still functioning. Maria stayed at the hospital as her family looks for a donor.

Her mom went to Republic Central Colleges, school of Maria, to help them find a donor. Maria's mom also told Maria's classmates about the condition of Maria and also told them that she was in the hospital.

Everyone we're shocked, they didn't expect that would happen that soon.

Maria's friends immediately texted Zhab about it, as everyone did, he was also shocked. He asked them to wait for him before they go to the hospital. And so they went..

Zhab was thinking where he could ask for help to seek a donor of a heart. There he felt his tender love for her, he thought of himself as a donor. He was thinking of it as they are on their way to the hospital.

Zhab talked with the doctor.
Zhab: Doc, is her heart still functions?
Doc: Yes, but it's weak for her. Depression makes it weaker.
Zhab: I was planning if we could switch our hearts, would that be possible? (Tears Fall)
Doc: That was harsh, but, we can work for it. That will put your life in danger young guy. A weak heart will be given to you.
Zhab: That's fine, if it's the only way we can both exist. Will it be okay?
Doc: If you already decided for it, nothing i can do. Talk o her mom, and the most important, you need to tell your family first.
Zhab: Okay doc. I will. Thank You.

Zhab then went to talk with Maria's mom and called her Tita. (Maria's friends are wondering why, Zhab seems to be so serious)

Zhab: Hello po Tita. I am Zhab, a friend of Maria. Hm. I am planning if I could be the donor. Would you let me? I talked with the doctor, we will switch our hearts.
Maria's Mom: NO. Does your parents know this?
Zhab: Not yet Tita, but after i get your permission, you could help me go to my parents and ask their permission.
Maria's Mom : I would be glad to, but your life would be at risk, your family might not agree.
Zhab: Tita, let's give it a try, please! (Tears Fall) I love your daughter, I am willing to take the risk just for her. You can ask her friends there about how sincere I am for your daughter.
Maria's Mom : Oh. How lucky my daughter is to have you, but why did you let her fall with the wrong man.
Zhab: Tita, it is a long story to tell, Maria's life would be in danger before i get finish. When I knew Maria has a heart problem, i suddenly went to RCC for her, but there, i saw her with another guy. I thought then that he is the one deserving to take care of Maria. I just went off and stay out of them. That's one mistake i committed and now i'll correct my mistake.
Maria's Mom : You are not intended to do it.
Zhab: I know Tita, but I want to. I need to. I love to.
Maria's Mom : (gives a hug) Thank You, (Tears Fall)
Zhab: Tita, one condition, don't tell her friends about it. :)

They went to Zhab's parents.
Zhab: Hi dad and mom, i am here to ask for permission.
(Tita told them Maria's health condition and the plan)
Dad: That was a risky thing, if i were you son, i'll do the same thing. I am very proud of you. But, i cannot risk your life, think of us. we'll be the one to suffer if we'll lose you.
Mom: Your dad was right.
Zhab: I understand, but i'll still live, we'll just have switch of hearts. Dad, i love her. What for could i live if she isn't there anymore? This would be something i'll eternally regret. i wanna live my life not just for me, i'd rather die with her than to live without her.
Dad: You don't know what you're saying!
Zhab: Dad, I know what i am saying, all i need is for you to understand and your permission. Life is not about all your decisions. this would be the first time i'll make my own risky decision. Can you see me crying and regretting everyday if ever something bad would happen to her?
Mom: No. I love you son. It's a yes for me. I'll just support your decisions.
Zhab: Thanks mom. dad, it's all up to you.
Dad: What more can i do?
Zhab: THANKS! (a smile and tears in his face)
Tita: Thank you! I am very happy that my daughter has your son in her life. I thank God :'')

The Operations Happen . . . . . It was a success!
Zhab & Maria, still unawake, shares one room in the hospital but with different bed. Maria woke up first, in the middle of the night, her mom saw her waking up. Maria was not yet on herself but her mom already told her everything that happened. Tita hugs Maria tightly.

Maria's Mom: Maria, you know that guy on the other bed?
Maria: Yes, she's my friend. Why is he there?
Maria's Mom : He loves you.
Maria: I know, he's the one who gave me the gift in my last birthday. But what is he doing there?
Maria's Mom: He saved you.
Maria: What? Saved me from what? I just fell asleep.
Maria's Mom : No. Your heart problem had its worst and he became a donor of the heart.
Maria: Really? Is he still alive? (Tears Fall)
Maria's Mom : Yes, you only had switch of hearts. I was thinking, you two are destined for one another.
Maria: (Tears Fall) I do think so, babawi ako sa kanya once he wake up. The moment he opens his eyes, the moment i'll give him Yes.
Maria's Mom: I'm glad to. Remember, it's his heart which is in you, definitely you'll love the heart on that guy. I can see the real love within the two of you. They say in stories that when two people love each other, it's like they give each other's heart. With what happened, i can say it will be true.
Maria hugs Tita. After it, Maria went to the bed of Zhab and slept there hugging him so tight.

Zhab woke up, amazed that Maria was beside him hugging him and so she sleep again and hugs back Maria.

Many visitors drop by their room, they see them very romantic. Even better when their friends went to them that morning.. Family & Friends of Zhab & Maria are there, they say that they really are meant to be, how cute their story is.

Zhab heard the noise and he wakes up, but in the true life. He wake up hugging his pillow and he's in his bedroom alone. Zhab thought to himelf, "Sometimes Dreams are better than Reality" :((




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This was a dream of mine, that's all i remember.
It is more dramatic if you will just see what i've seen in my dreams. I hope someday i could be a scriptwriter so i could put that into movies or video clips. :)

How SAD :((